Life huh?

Hallo everyone, sorry I haven’t been around for ages, but my computer got broken and I am now only on the net by hook and by crook!

I have had one of the most exhausting fornights of my life, mentally and pyhsically.  It all started two sunday’s ago and has not eased up much since.  My partner and I had a huge argument on that day, which,  stupidly ended up with the laptop being thrown across the rom, by him, not me and I have had no internet access ever since.  To anyone who knows me, you may had well of cut my right arm off.  My life is run via the net and I have been completely lost.  I have had very limited access to my bank and facebook via my daughter’s i phone, but for a hardened user like me, this is really not enough. I put in a claim on my house insurance and hopefully my new laptop will be delivered tomorrow.

Without going into too much detail, my relationship is pretty much over, I don’t think that there is a way back now, terrible damage was done that night, especially where Talwyn, my eldest is concerned and I now have to do what is right for my children and I and move on.  So as you can imagine, the atmosphere has been pretty heinous here, with him refusing to move out, but this will all change shortly, but it hasn’t been easy.

So after sorting laods of stuff out that week, we then move on to this last week.  I was on the sofa last wednesday morning, dozing, as you do, when I get ‘that’ call from school-‘hello, Kate, its Jan, don’t worry, Pali is fine, BUT Ross has fallen over in the palyground and I think you need to come up and look at his arm.’  I have never recieved one of these calls, worse case senario before was knowing that I had sent them to school a bit poorly, then the next couple of hours they have deteriorated and I have had to go and pick them up, and as I say, for the first time in 11 years of going up there, this is the first call of this nature that I have recieved.

I get up there, the boy is obviously wracked in pain, his arm was looking awful and he was whiter than a ghost…so off to casualty we trapse, the poor little mite being very brave, and it turns out that he had fractured his arm and had to go through all of the palava of getting it x-rayed and splinted up, thankfully it was very quiet in there, we didn’t have to wait for hours, and we got seen and were home just as Pali got out of school.  The funny thing was, he can be the type of boy who will cry over any little bump or scratch, or verbal abuse from his sisters, but not a tear had been shed.  Bless him.  It wasn’t until about half past five that he suddenly burst into tears and it all came out, but I think that he was in a state of shock.

I had, that morning, made an appointment for Pali to go down to the doctors, as she has got some lumps on the back of her neck that have been beginning to worry me.  She had had ome for a few months and then I noticed that two more had appeared, not where the glands are, and thought that I ought to get them checked out.  I am now very glad that I did.  I took her down to the surgery, Talwyn wanted to come, because she is like that and took her in to see the doc.  She checked them out, and thankfully ‘Wyn was there as she asked the girls to go and sit in the waiting room and then dropped the bombshell on me.  To get this typed quickly, lets just say that she wants the oncology department to check them out as soon as possible and I should have an appointment for her in the next day or two.  To say that this has frightened me is the understatment of the decade and I cannout bear the thought of anything being wrong with my little angel and am trying to remain as positive as possible and just hope that they are just benign cysts.  She is the brightest, charming, beautiful girl, everybody loves Pali and I obviously, don’t want anything wrong with her.

On a more positve note, my friends from Zero’s will know about this one, I have finally found a puppy to bring home and love.  When I gave up drinking a year ago I promised myself that if I could do a year I would get myself a labrador puppy as my reward.  I am very nearly, almost there-I have found a litter of Golden Retriver puppies, they are two weeks old at the moment, they come from someone local, I know the parents and granny of the pups.   They have good pedigrees, mum and dad have excellent hip and eye scores and they are beautiful dogs.  I am getting a little girl, with the working name at the moment of Dorcas (Dog Marley) and I can’t wait for her to come and live with me on or about 21st June.  I am very, very excited about this, as are the children.  I will post a pic once I have chosen her-they have given me pick of the litter, but am not going to chose which one until their little personalities have started showing and I can judge them better.  Aww, a new baby.

Also another plus is the fact that I have lost over a stone recently, which can be nothing but good.  I have a long way to go on this, but this is a great starting point, think it is from doing some more walking and giving up ice cream and I want it to continue on a downward trend.

Thats nearly it, and I know that this is old news now, but did anyone else pull an all nighter on election night?  I was planning on doing so, but I got very into it, ended up doing the whole thing, it was fantastic reality tv.  Trouble is, I am not as young as I used to be and it took me about 4 days to recover from it!!

I hope this finds you all well and take care,

xxx